Take pride in that.
If you don’t know what it feels like to be completely fine one moment, but then all of a sudden one move gets made or an image comes in front of your eyes, and that moment of serenity is ruined,
Because your breathing becomes short,
Because you’ll want to rip your skin apart even more,
Because the urge to fly into the night time becomes unbearable.
You’re lucky, take pride in that.
I would give anything for that moment of calm to stay no matter what is being done, no matter what I see.